I love me

I love me because I am a moving, working flowing living bundle of opposites. I’m really big and strong and tough, but I’m gentle as hell. I can be one of the most insensitive assholes, but I am so caring till it makes me sick. I love just enjoying the simple company (just chillin’ type stuff) of a nice lady, but I love to just fuck. I’m thinking bout all this stuff cause I just got finished reading my blog from late Saturday night. I was drunk, and pure me was coming out. Pure, emotional, sentimental, uncomfortably uncouth, blunt, sincere me. I don’t know why I am like this now, but just about everytime I get drunk I end up losing the majority of my memory. I didn’t really remember much of what I wrote on that blog, but after reading it I really agree with what I wrote. Mostly the line when I said something like “sometimes you just have to go through all the bullshit to get to the good shit. And then combined with the whole “Good is not the norm………There are more sub-par than good people” joint.

That there really makes me think. When it comes to relationship stuff few people really look at it that way. They just get all frustrated, say all dudes, or females are bad. I know I have gone through that a few times. Or they will say hey, it must be me that is attracting not so good people. I’m sure that can be a noticeable size part of the reason, but I think that mostly it just comes down to the simple fact that “Good” is just not common. It just might take you a few tries till you get the “Red Gummy Worm”. I’m gonna use the “Red Gummy Worm” as the metaphor because people do the same thing with gummi worms except they don’t get all that mad when they can’t find the one they want.

When folks are digging in the bag for one of the red gummi worms and can’t find one they never snatch their hand out of the bag and start cussing and then say “Gummi Worms ain’t shit” I’ve never heard anyone be like “Every time I try to get me a red gummi worm I get an orange one…..At first it seemed like red while it was still kinda in the bag, but when it came out from the bag it was very orange…..That’s it. I’m not fucking with anymore gummi Worms. I’m switching over to Gummi Bears and then I’m gonna cut my hair short and start wearing flannel shirts and Doc Marten’s.

I’m gonna just start treating my woman search just like my gummi worm search. If I come to realize that there aren’t any more gummi worms in the bag, I’ll just get another bag, maybe an even more expensive bag with higher quality worms. I’m not gonna get pissed at all the Gummi worms, I’m damn sure not gonna switch over to Gummi bears. I know there will always be more bags of gummy worms, some of ‘em red, but most of ‘em not, and that is just how it is.