……What…I’m your WHAT friend??????
Sooooo, yeah, I called up the Baller the other night and told her that I wasn’t gonna talk to any other chicks..and that I just wanted to get to know her. (I told her before we ever went out that I was doing the casual dating thing. She told me that she didn’t get envolved in stuff like that cause she gives her all in relationships and doesn’t want a portion given in return) She asked me last week if I had made a decision to just try and get to know her, and I told her I was about 75% sure that was what I wanted, but there was still that 25% that wanted to still hang out with other folk (females). I aint gonna lie…..I was kinda holding out to see if I could get in the HSC’s guts right quick before I tried to settle down for a minute, but between her baby daddy (read: still un-divorced and refusing to sign the papers husband) drama, her mama trying to control her life drama (yeah, she is living back in the house with moms, her little girl, her older sister, a cousin, and I think an uncle), and then still having to deal with her kid (her kid is kinda punking her cause she feels guilty about breaking up with her daddy) and all that crap. She is a flake. I can understand why, but she is a fuckin’ flake. And I don’t want to be fucking around on some maybe ass, when I could maybe have a relationship and all that.
Anyway……I told her I just wanted to talk to her and no one else and now I think she is referring to me as boyfriend.
I told her that I wanted to get to know her and now I am afraid that I am gonna get in trouble for introducing her as “the Baller” and not “This is my girlfriend, the Baller”. I think I have really become afraid of relationships. Not all of them, but the ones that involve the really nice good girls that I could see a possible future with. I don’t mind linking up with chicks that I mostly wanna just bust out or whatever cause I know it aint gonna last long. I always kinda felt like me and the model chick weren’t gonna really be together long cause there was a lot about her and her ghetto/hood ass family that I did not like and stuff like that, so I had no problem kickin it with her. But this chick here seems all to the good. That scares me cause I get to thinking about not being able to make decisions by myself and stuff. Like…if I end up going after another job one day and have to move….I just can’t do that. I have to see how she would feel about making that move and wait for her to find a job too, or do the long distance thing for a while and all that crap.
But, if I am kicking it with her, and no one else and no intentions of trying to talk to anyone else…..then I guess that does mean we are in……..OH….MY…GOD. I just realized what I was about to type. I was about to say a commited relationship. That shit scares the hell out of me. All these what ifs keep flying through my head. Like…What if the HSC can get free for a minute and wants to come up to the spot and let them big ol’ 32 D’s get loose in my face. Or what if that fine ass mid 30’s chick from the gym wants me to get up in them guts. Or what about my old cut buddy that said I can “anything I want” to her…..a nigga might feel like poking her in the pooper and skeetin’ in her eye…..or just some other ol nasty, not appropriate for the mainstay type stuff.
The baler doesn’t have no D boobies….but she does kill them all, hands down in the below the waist region. Seeing her in them tights that she wears during her spinning class is what made….no, forced me to holler at her. Chick is bad. And she is really really super duper nice and sweet. I can trade medium large Bs and bangin legs and thighs for Ds and no real booty and skinny little chicken legs.
Anyway……I told her I just wanted to talk to her and no one else and now I think she is referring to me as boyfriend.
I told her that I wanted to get to know her and now I am afraid that I am gonna get in trouble for introducing her as “the Baller” and not “This is my girlfriend, the Baller”. I think I have really become afraid of relationships. Not all of them, but the ones that involve the really nice good girls that I could see a possible future with. I don’t mind linking up with chicks that I mostly wanna just bust out or whatever cause I know it aint gonna last long. I always kinda felt like me and the model chick weren’t gonna really be together long cause there was a lot about her and her ghetto/hood ass family that I did not like and stuff like that, so I had no problem kickin it with her. But this chick here seems all to the good. That scares me cause I get to thinking about not being able to make decisions by myself and stuff. Like…if I end up going after another job one day and have to move….I just can’t do that. I have to see how she would feel about making that move and wait for her to find a job too, or do the long distance thing for a while and all that crap.
But, if I am kicking it with her, and no one else and no intentions of trying to talk to anyone else…..then I guess that does mean we are in……..OH….MY…GOD. I just realized what I was about to type. I was about to say a commited relationship. That shit scares the hell out of me. All these what ifs keep flying through my head. Like…What if the HSC can get free for a minute and wants to come up to the spot and let them big ol’ 32 D’s get loose in my face. Or what if that fine ass mid 30’s chick from the gym wants me to get up in them guts. Or what about my old cut buddy that said I can “anything I want” to her…..a nigga might feel like poking her in the pooper and skeetin’ in her eye…..or just some other ol nasty, not appropriate for the mainstay type stuff.
The baler doesn’t have no D boobies….but she does kill them all, hands down in the below the waist region. Seeing her in them tights that she wears during her spinning class is what made….no, forced me to holler at her. Chick is bad. And she is really really super duper nice and sweet. I can trade medium large Bs and bangin legs and thighs for Ds and no real booty and skinny little chicken legs.
posted by RAGING BULL at 9:01 AM
4 Comments:
but my question is if the mainstay was down for the nasty nasty would she even be considered a mainstay???
Awww excepting the fact that you dont know yet if the smashing is official I ADORE the fact that you are somewhat willing to be a proper boy and hide the "grimey nigga superpowers" to give it a fair shot!
I Likes!
I don't know...the fact that you are considering what if's with ALL these OTHER women, leads me to say you're not ready.
Don't mess with that girl's head...tell her the truth.
What this boils down to is Chick told me she doesn't try to know cats on any level above friendship when they are dating other folks. I both respect and like her enough to actually do that.
I'm not playing with her head.
I'm making a sacrifice to see what this might become. I'm giving up garaunteed ass just to spend time with this chick and you tell me I'm playing with her head ......Niggro Please!!!!
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