Everythang is everythang

I love wireless interfuckingnet. Yesterday, I sat at the top of the woodward parking garage in my truck and did my internet homework. And right now i'm in the basement of Strosier Library, just bullshittin. Had intentions on getting work done, but I didn't, partly cause I got to bullshittin on my laptop, and mostly cause I don't know enough to about accounting to study worth shit.

I just remembered a couple of blogworthy things. One is my mom telling me I'm fat and need to work out harder, and the other is that my friend, the West Indies Woman, didn't call me back, after I called her to hangout. I Bitch about the latter, its always better for me to rant about anger inducing shit cause it makes me feel better.

So, what the fuck? A nigga can't get a fuckin call back? That type of shit always pisses me the fuck off, cause I take it as a slap in the fucking face, like I'm not worth atleast a simple "Hey Nigga, fuck you!!" Atleast I would not be sitting up waiting and shit. I HATE WAITING. I HATE NOT GETTING MY WAY. I'm CLYDE, thats how I am, for good or bad thats just me. I can handle not gettting my way, and I can handle waiting, but not at the same time.

Not calling me back makes me wait, and then ultimately I realize I'm not getting my way.....and then I'm disappointed too. This all leads to anger, which sometimes leads me to do mean shit. Not right, but oh well.

Basically, just call a motherfucker and let him know what the fucking deal straight up and shit would be ok. This shit just burns my ass. I would give anyone the common courtesy of a "Hey, can't make it....sorry." Call, why can't I get that back from a "friend".

I think I'm like this mostly cause when I was a kid my mom always made people keep their word, as much as she reasonably could, to me and my sister. Yeah, my mom is the real BULLY.

Oh fucking well, the BULLY forgives, but always remembers. Always. SSSOOOOOooooooooooo


FUCK IT
I'm the ever lovin BULLY

Why the fuck..........

It's 7:30. I've been up for atleast 45 minutes. Why, because MOMS doesn't like me being out late anymore. The older I get, the dummer the gotdamn rules. She just finds new stuff to get mad about and then does mean ass shit to get back at me because she can. This sucks. For all this shit I could have kept my black ass in Texas working in a stupid ass Flour Mill. Atleast I could hang out how I wanted, or even have folks over however and whenever I wanted.



This is dumb.

-The demasculinated bully

p.s.: If I misspelled demasculinated, blow me.

A moment of clarity.......... or is it beer induced logic

So, I saw my ex-girlfriend tonight at a party. I waved, said hi, all that shit. She sat there gave a half ass wave and kinda tried to hide her face. I said bye to her and all her friends when I left, and she never made any kind of effort to speak to me. I got to thinking about our situation, its all her shit now that I think about it. She says its too hard for her to try to move on and still talk to me, so we only talk when she feels like calling me. I have gone along with it cause I am still happy to hear her voice.

After tonight, though, I realized that either way we do this shit she is not gonna want to have any type of relationship with me whatsoever, be it friendship or any other kind. So what is the point in me hanging on to random, whenever calls to be happy to hear from her for nothing. None. There is absolutely no point whatsoever.

O.k., I'm the first one to admit to being the biggest punk ass bitch when it comes to girls that I like. I feel like I'v been her bitch for about the last year, not for the hell of it, but because I still have real feeling for her and don't want her out of my life. It hasn't gotten me anywhere but out of her life, so now I am saying "FUCK ALL THAT!!!". Yeah, I still miss her, but I'm tired of being a big ole bitch for nothing. If we can't talk and atleast be half ass friends, then she can keep her random as check up calls. Fuck being so nice. I am finally at the point where I am ready to say "Fuck it" about the whole situation, ex included. It hurts me, but enough is e-fucking-nough.

-Real talk from the Motherfuckin' BULLY