Stuff on My Mind

the BULLY has alot of stuff on his mind. I'm looking for a job again. I've had an interview, seems pretty promising, but you never know till you have an offer in your hand. I have really kinda slacked off on my job searching. I look in streaks, cause I keep getting frustrated and stop looking. I have a really good, super nice girl, but I don't plan on being here, maybe evennear here for too much longer, and I am no where near the point to want to do the long distance thing. I'm not saying I'm gonna just up and stop talking to her when I move, cause you never know what might unfold. I am saying that I'm not going to be "exclusive" with her. I hope she will be understanding of my point of wanting to have someone there, and also I feel like some separation would help me to really find out where my feelins are exactly. I guess it would be more of a separation than a break up,....... yeah, that’s it.

So, last week I acted kinda dickish to this chick. Here's what happened: I sees her and walk up and be all happy and Geeked to see her " Hey Slim Hoodie" (I'm pretty sure I blogged about her in the fall of '05, maybe I referred to her as the slim hood chick or something) She walks off to her home girl and I'm like "Damn, you can't speak?" and she snaps back "I'M MOVING OUT OF THESE PEOPLE'S WAY!!" she said it in a nasty way and gave me the gas face too. So I turn around and go back to flirting with the girls that were happy to see me, I didn't need that one girl's attention, I kinda wanted it, but didn't need it (Yeah, I admitted it. I wanted her attention, but I'm not breaking myself for nan nigga, ho, nigga ass ho, big as ho, nice young lady, George W. Bush, your momma, his momma, her momma, Arnold Schwarzecracker, Uncle Rucker, stank ho, loose ho, dirty ho, fuck nigga, dirty spic, funky frenchman, Barney the purple Dinosaur, Goku, Eric, Curtis, Curtis "Bitch ass 50-cent" Jackson, Aldalicious' crazy ass boyfriend, some old ass 37 year old dude that still kicks it with 21 year old college girls, no one, not even Black Ho, sorry I had to go off on you, but I had too. And that shit is real.) Anyway, when I'm leaving I pass by Slim Hoodie. I tell her bye in passing and she up and grabs the BULLY by his hand and is all like "Where you going? Why are you leaving? Blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah blah." But I gotta keep things moving. I was going to go study. I wasn't there to kick it with her and her friends, she wasn't geeked to see me when I was geeked to see her and I told her all of that. Pulled my hand away from her, and bugged out.

The shit bothered me so much, cause when I met her she struck me as a really cool cute ass chick. A lil smaller than what I normally like, but still good. I kinda wanted to stay and kick it with her, but A)I would have felt like a bitch-ass punk if I would have stayed and B) I'm realizing its all nice and good to be that super nice nigga all the time, but sometimes (actually more often than not) you have to let people know, that although you are nice, that you are not just gonna sit there and let them do you any old kinda way. Really, I mean, Slim Hoodie just added me onto her friends list on facebook. I shot her a message asking why she acted funny with me the other day. From here on out its in her court. I put out a welcome mat.

This shit also makes me think about the whole relationship thing again. If I know I am gonna end up separating from this chick, why should I wait till then? wouldn't it make more sense to do it now, an try to restart the one man RIPFEST, and really enjoy my last few months in tally-oke? I mean, really. We all know how much the BULLY likes to chase that ass. Even if I don't get that ass, its fun as hell to chase. Actually getting that ass is really nice too, don't get me wrong.

Anyway

I'm out, bitches!!

Changing my opinion somewhat

Ok, so so most of yall know, or have atleast read, that the BULLY really doesn't get along wih A.K.A.'s. I've blogged about 'em atleast once or something. Anyway, believe it or not, I have met an A.K.A. that I actually get along with really really well. She really is cool ass chick. I first hung out with her during spring break. We kicked like all day, and didn't end up cursing or arguing at or with each other at all. I was really surprised myself. My homeboy that I was staying with was just as surprised. Its actually pretty funny, because he knows me and he called me stupid when I told him I had an A.K.A. coming down. He was all like "How long do you think she is gonna be here before yall start yelling and she leaves?" .

So, yeah, me getting along with an A.K.A. is something quite a surprise, even more surprising is that I get along with another that I have class with. We can study and bullshit and not have anyproblem whatsoever. Maybe it has something to do with me being older, calmer, more confident and assertive, while being less aggressive. Or maybe its just those huge ass mostly paper lines that have been dropped, thinning out that A.K.A. characteristic that I don't gell with. I think its both.


Anyway, shit is going well in the life of the BULLY. I'm loving this gett ing older shit. I'm really feeling the person tht I'm becoming. I'm liking the way that my ways are evolving. In all reality, when it really comes down to it, I'm stilll the same fucking BULLY that I was years ago, but where I was 50 grit BULLY back in the day, I'm much more 750 grit BULLY. (Excuse the sand paper based comparisonss, for all you fancy folk, that don't know about sandpaper ratings: Something like a 50 grit will wear down steel, 1000 grit will just rub off the top/clear coat of your car's paint job.)

I could blob on and on all dayum day about the fuckin' BULLY, so I'll just stop now for both our sakes.

-the BULLY